Zechariah....God Remembers.

Let's take another look at Norina's world of medical intervention thus far so you can get the "full effect" of the story I am about to tell you:

3/05- m/c, have a d and c
5/05- m/c twins, have another d and c
6/05- dx with a uterine abnormality called a "uterine septum" believed to be the cause of the 1st 2 m/c's.
9/05- have surgery to have the septum removed (RE says I can not carry to term w/o this surgery)
12/05- get pg
1/06- victim of a car accident, have another m/c, have ANOTHER d and c.
6/06- RE finds scar tissue in the uterine cavity, recommends more surgery.
6/06-have surgery to remove scar tissue and Dr also cuts more of the septum out.
8/06- told we can beging ttc
1/07- have IUI since haven't been able to get pg.
2/07-4/07- do gonal f injections with timed intercourse, still no pg.
4/07-begin weekly accupuncture treatments
7/07- dx with elevated NKC and MTHFR compound factor (although homositine levels are in "normal" range)
8/07- FINALLY get pg

Currently on 30mg lovenox injections 1x a day, baby asprin, Folgard (suppose to be on prenatals but can't keep them down so dr's letting me have a repreave for a bit). Just stopped taking progesterone suppositore 3 x's a day and estrace 3 x's a day.


And that brings us to today. I went to the dr today. Baby looks good. Measuring 12 weeks 2 days with an EDD of 4/26/07. Baby was wiggling all around during the u/s. My OB said she wants me to see the perinatologist about my cervix. She says it looks good to her but she's not the "expert". So she told me to wait a minute and called over to the perinatologist's office. He says he'll see me now (he's right next door).So I go over there and he does another u/s. He says the baby is practicing tai kwon doe (he/she is kicking and punching up a storm!). So he took all the measurements and says my cervix looks "normal" and so he doesn't think I need a cerclage. I'm like "whew". Then he says "it's not like you have had any uterine abnormalities"....I stop him. "Ummm yes I have". I explain the uterine septum that was removed....twice. He says "oh i didn't know that" (me thinking=hmmm try looking in the chart, I told the nurse before you came in and she wrote it down!!!!!!!!!!) then he says, "in that case I would say you do need a cerclage then". He says that uterine abnormalities and incompetent cervix's sometimes go hand in hand. He wanted to do the surgery this Friday but I asked if I could think about it. I would have to take 5 days off work for bed rest and pending there's no complications then I would be able to go back to work. I am so upset. I don't want any more medical interventions! I feel like I have been through enough!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Then I talked to my friend who has a friend that this is happening to right now. She's in the hospital and has been there for 6 weeks because of an incompetent cervix. She almost lost her baby. She also had a uterine septum that was removed prior to this pregnancy. So now I feel like I have to do it. My other option is to be checked every 2 weeks but that doesn't guarantee anything. I can be seen one day and everything be fine and then have my cervix go the next day. The other thing compounding all of this is I'm not feeling much better. I just spent Friday thru Sunday on the couch with an iv hooked up to me because the MS has been so bad. I also have a zofran pump that's not making much of a difference but I'm wearing it, allergic skin reaction and all (think 2 large red swollen hot spots as big as an apple on each thigh...I am now wearing it on my stomach...good times I tell ya). So surgery on top of throwing up!? Seriously when will i catch a break?

Ok update: I just spoke with my OB. She says we're doing the cercalge no if's, and's, or but's about it. She also wants me to make arrangements for disability. She is not willing to send me back to work after the cerclage is done. Says we will wait and see.

F*&K!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I feel like crying but at the same time I understand I have to do this or I'll never forgive myself if something goes wrong.

Called the perinatologist office. I am scheduled for next Friday Oct. 26 at 3pm. Lucky me gets to not eat anything after 7 am. I AM GOING TO DIE. I'm literally gonna walk into the hospital vomiting if I go that long w/o eating.

And the one I'm doing it all for: