Random 4 am thoughts....

Did you ever think what it would be like to have to pee every 2 hours? I never did, till now. I've concluded it's annoying. I'm going through toilet paper like it's out of style. Oh and sleep...forget it, as soon as it hits me I'm up because I have to pee again. Wondering if some Depends might do the trick? JK That's gross.

I feel this incessant need to get EVERYTHING done. Does anyone else have random medical bills that you know you don't owe but the money bastards at the dr's office send them to you because they don't get the insurance payment fast enough? Or is that just us because we're medical anomalies #1 and #2 over here? Well anyway, if you are anything like us, this has happened to you. And if you're anything like me you let them sit on your office desk because it's time consuming and annoying to deal with these folks. But I called all 6 of them today and got things straightened out. Finally. Now on to all the other stuff that needs to get done....

Had a few painters come out to give me quotes on doing the baby's room. One is getting back to me tomorrow with a number, the other quoted me $720!!!!!!!!!! Ummm I'm in the wrong business if a painter gets paid $720 to paint 4 walls and a ceiling. Oh and get this, this was with US providing the paint! And I asked him about doing a chair railing...originally he said he could, that he could "do anything" so I was thinking great, I could get him to do a few other things around the house like repair where Bridgit ate the wall (don't ask me why she thinks plaster tastes good but apparently to baby boxers it does since she's done it TWICE!) , hang the plasma on the wall, replace the ceiling fan, that kind of thing (FYI he advertises as a "handyman"). Well this guy ain't so handy. Claims he's selling his business so he doesn't have all his tools. He tells me "I'm just going to paint". I was like "ummm no you're not, not for $720" Ok I didn't say that but I wanted to. I politely escorted him out and did the whole "we'll call you thing". Hoping the other guy doesn't decide to ream me with a ridiculous cost as well. He was much more professional though and knows what the hell a chair railing is and how to do it. So we will see.

I think I had some more contractions today but nothing too bad. I thought I would "know" what they were like when they happened but I'm not sure. I get this weird pain for a little while and then it goes away and then it repeats but not in any certain time frame that is trackable yk? Is that a contraction??? Who knows. At this point in the game almost nothing concerns me, I'm just chalking it up to ANOTHER pregnancy symptom.

Speaking of which this thought came to me yesterday...I remember when we thought maybe I couldn't get pregnant. We were talking about doing IVF and trying to decide if we wanted to try it on me or use a surrogate (believe it or not I have some AMAZING people in my life who seriously offered to surrogate for us...). Well I remember I started praying this prayer in the midst of all of this. I asked God to just let me have one baby that will grow inside of ME. One that I could nuture to full health for 9 months, give birth to and raise. A baby of my very own, that I grew, that we made, so that I would know what it's like to have that full connection, that bond, to fulfill the desire of my heart. Then I got pregnant...with this keeper. Looking back I think of that prayer and I'm wondering if it's one of those "be careful what you ask for things" because I think God said, "Ok here you go. Here is your very own baby to carry and allllllllllllllll the symptoms of pregnancy to go along with him. So that you will truely know what it's like to have a baby grow inside you." The thought kinda makes me laugh. I've been saying for so long that I kinda felt I DESERVED an easier pregnancy after all I/we have been through but you know what? It doesn't always work out that way does it? There is a lesson here. There always is. That God, always has a sense of humor doesn't He? :)